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Mysterious worries.

Today, right since morning, I have been having this vague feeling... an unknown fear, or rather, a fear of the unknown future...or what , I know not.  An anxiety that has been troubling me every now and times it just vanishes and at times it rears its mean head and scares me no end. I am unable to make anything out of it. For all you know, it may  just be my imagination or even my crazy hormones. I so hope it is the latter..and nothing serious!

The loneliness, the emptiness that I sometimes feel, is scary. It leaves me feeling jittery.But, what do I do?

And all the time that I am hounded by this vague fear, I pray for the unwavering support of 'my people' pillars of strength. These are those few people in my life who have given me unconditional love and support  when I have needed it the most.

We will be together always, won't we? We all will be there for each other, won't we?

Am I the only one to feel it, or does everyone  go through such phases? I think the uncertainty of life and the mysterious ways in which it surprises us, is what leads to these fears.

Just one prayer, God, give me strength and keep me close to my people...that is where I get my strength from. That is where I get the ability to face my fears.

I think I need to call up mum!


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