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Un-break my heart!!

   My dear friend,
       
                 How are you? I hope you are in the pink of your health and happiness.  I so hope that life, without me, hasn't stopped for you and that  you are enjoying  all the peace you yearned for.  I agree, you must have had reasons for what you did to me, therefore I only hope for the best for you and your family.
              As far as I am concerned, well, I am trying to live my life without you, your love, your attention. And all my time is spent wondering where I went wrong. What is it about me that made you take such a decision?  What mistakes did I make that replaced the love you had for me with hatred so strong that you abandoned me ?  From the bottom of my heart, I am sorry for whatever it is that I did that caused you so much pain and discomfort. I was only doing what comes naturally to me...I was being loving and caring to the best of my ability...the way God made me!
             I still remember how you had come to the breeder's  place where I, along with my brothers and sisters, was staying. I lapped up all the attention your little girl showered on me! How it was love at first sight for her as well as for me! Yes, I knew I would miss my parents and my siblings, but then, I was also happy that I would now be a part of a brand new family! I knew what I was supposed to do...I was supposed to shower  my  unconditional love and attention on you- my master, my friend for life. And I knew I would do an awesome job because I was created to do just that!
          The love and care you gave me made me forget my own family. Overnight you had become my new  family, my world! And that's when I knew in my heart that the next 15 years would be spent in your loving company, in making you happy and proud of your decision to bring me home and make me a part of your life. I was so proud of my life, my family, the warmth and love that I received here, that I felt superior to other canines that I met on my daily walks. They thought of me as pompous and haughty and teased me that one day I would be shown the door just like some of the other members of my community. But, I was so sure that I would never suffer in that way as I was the apple of your eyes! I was so wrong! Or, was I?
      Where DID i go wrong? Had my love  lost its shine or had you grown weary of me that you could no longer stand my sight? My heart broke when your little girl tried her best to stand up for me but  you paid no heed. Is it that I had become an inconvenience for you? Or is it that because of my growing age and my slow movements that I had lost my charm? We all grow old....that is part of nature. Is this how the world functions? Does old age only lead to abandonment ? Is it the norm to discard  those in their twilight years? This is really not so in our canine world. We look out for each other. We take care of the entire pack, irrespective of age. And, we also accept the blows that life metes out with strength and  resilience. And that is exactly what I am doing....what I have been doing, since you turned your back on me.
       I miss you, my dear friend. And, I miss your little girl the most. I spend my days just thinking about her, about you, about what a wonderful life it was.  But, I hold no grudges. No. That is not how we are made. I still love you, and will always love you, from the bottom of my heart. My heart....which is now broken, will still hold you in it ... till my last breath! And, even after I have passed over, I shall continue to watch over you,be your guardian angel,..  till we meet again.
         Forever yours,
                                                                                           Your furry friend.                                                          
       

                                                                                                                             

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  1. I can't think of doing this to my cezu.....he is so selflessly happy when I come home....wants to sit in my lap for emotional support and barks with insecurity when someone in the house speaks in higher tone....he wants peace at home.....

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