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Five sentence fiction..........A page from my diary.

This week's word : FEARLESS.


       My mother-in-law suffers from schizophrenia, my husband suffers from bi-polar disorder, and I, from fear.

     Fear of things going awry: fear of a relapse: fear of every little change in the behaviour that speaks of a storm looming around the corner, threatening to throw life in a state of disarray.

     It has been a long time, yet  to this day, I fear the wild waves that hit the shore on a dark and stormy night

    But this is not the life I envisioned for myself - in constant terror about the ups and downs that life is bound to be laced with: I want to change, do away with this fear that has been playing havoc with my entire system.

     I yearn to fly- fly free of the worries that have been my constant companions, fly free in search of the happiness that resides within me ( ! ), fly free.....fly fearlessly.....but, a doubt  nags me - will I be able to do it? 

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  1. May everyone overcome their fears & have no doubts.
    Best wishes to fly, Shilpa :)

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  2. Yes you will be :)
    It's not easy but there are wonders awaiting for you if you can make it.

    Good one Shilpa :)

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  3. Hi Shilpa,
    Well, you have really said a lot in just 5 sentences.
    One suggestion - keep your sentences short
    Why don't you read some stories written by Ernest Hemngway like "Killers" "Hills Like White Elephants" "A Clean Well Lighted Place" etc?
    You write well.
    Regards
    Vikram Karve
    Academic and Creative Writing Journal Vikram Karve

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  4. Good one Shilpa :) u'll be able to fly free, high and fearlessly.

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