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Thoughts.

                  It is said,  that if we knew the power of our thoughts, we would never entertain any negative thoughts, ever.  However, in spite of this knowledge, what do we do, when scary thoughts crowd our  mind, and refuse to leave us alone, try as we might?
         A week ago, I witnessed the scariest sight of my life. A building that stands just opposite our's, had its meter room on fire.  Due to some electrical malfunction, some sparks must have gone off, causing the entire set up to catch fire. As I stood in my balcony, gaping at the black smoke that billowed out of the meter room, I felt my heart racing with all sorts of frightening thoughts. And, after a few minutes, when fire started spewing out of every gap in the room, I almost shook with fright! The fire did resemble a mini-volcano, frankly. Although scared to the core, I just stood rooted to the spot, till the time a couple of fire brigades came and put out the fire.
        The moment I retired to the comfort of my home, the scene came flooding back to my mind, sending shivers down my spine. I entered the kitchen to finish my cooking, but felt my hands shiver as I stood in front of the gas stove. The flame of the stove reminded me of the wall of fire outdoors and I almost fainted. Since that day, every time I have to turn on the stove, or light a matchstick, I shudder because of the images that come to my mind. Am I entertaining negative thoughts? And, if my thoughts are indeed that powerful, then...NO! No way! I quickly halt the train  of my thoughts,  and invite some pleasant thoughts over.
          Since a few days now, the hubby and the baby have not been in the best of health. Worried about two of the most important people in my life,  a thought just passed my mind that, what if someone else was to fall sick?! I pleaded against it, and prayed for everyone's wellbeing. I had just begun thinking positive things, when my best friend called up to tell me that she had met with an accident! 'Oh, no! Not you too!" were the  words that escaped my mouth as I remembered the worrisome thoughts I had in the morning.
       Now, I am afraid. And, that is an understatement. I am actually horror-struck! How do I drive away the bad thoughts that come to my mind? I know that our thoughts do not have a pair of wings or legs that they can come and go as the please, but, they are there, somewhere, lingering at the back of our mind, ready to scare us out of our skin. How do we banish those thoughts for good?

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